The last part of the last chapter of WHEN GOD INTERRUPTS, Barnes talks of when we loose our faith. Don’t we all have moments, days or months where we wonder about all this. Some people leave the church. Some are still in church but they have lost it in their hearts. Sometimes it is a response to the silence of God. God is often silent when we prefer that he speak, and he interrupts us when we prefer that he stay silent. His ways are not our ways. (Barnes)
So the search begins for answers. Something that will satisfy the soul. However the journey through doubt begins, the return to God is usually the same. Like the prodical son, doubters don’t come back to the Father’s house because they all have it figure out. Nor do they come home because the Father went after them. It’s because after wandering around for a while doubters get tired and spent. Eventually they remember the place they left.
So this is where I am at. Not really searching for answers. Just sitting in grief waiting. Trying not to look for substitute gods that do not satisfy. Sitting in the faith simply because there is not place else to go.
This is a great book if anyone wants a good read.